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Maurice Lim Wan Xiong
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I am currently passionate about fashion. Follow me on at drblogspot.blogspot.com
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I am back!

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My life has been restored.

I will be taking photos next week in 2011.

I believe it has been a year.
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If I ever recalled my interest in DeviantART, it it would have been Facebook instead. I haven't settled or published any new works since a decade ago, felt like a decade ago. So why is it? I have been a member here since ages and always love DeviantART throughout the year. So what have I been doing all these months, and almost a year or more, being inactive here?

Well, it's a hell long of a story. I had been off here for many reasons. And the main reason is because of love, relationship, friendship and many experience I had encountered in the year 2009. I had learned a lot from many experience, and finally discovered who I am in person. There were happy moments and sad moments. Stories and encounters like a bible. I wish I could go back to the past in 2009 and fix all my mistakes I had made. I've overspent my parents budget in Australia, until when I look at the figures today I still couldn't believe how could someone spend so much money within a year. I've made a lot of new friends, good and bad too, been helped, been used, been betrayed, you name it.

Because I guess what affects me the most was love. On the 25th of August 2009 was my 20th birthday and I made a wish. I wish that I had a girlfriend. I felt my life was incomplete, I needed someone to be there with me, to care for me, and to love me in return. And within a week, I met a girl called Jasmine. Which then I just googled Jasmine in Wikipedia, means "Gift from God". She was everything I wanted as a girlfriend, and I loved her so much. I never felt so in loved before in my life. I just want to spend every single minute of my life with her. She was wonderful, and I was obsessed with her. Although we weren't together for long, but the days we spend was so memorable, till today I still couldn't let it go.

But things got really complicated at end of the year and we had a break. And the break just broke us apart. I guess it was because of the trust mainly and my inexperience. There was faith and there was hope for us to get back together, but there wasn't a miracle. At times I was very angry, and I felt sorry. But then sometimes when I look how she treated me, I couldn't put things to sense and I guess that is what tore us apart. After the break up, I had lost my passion to love. I couldn't be stuffed doing any shoots or making any conceptual series. I was dead, in love with love. I miss her so much, I never loved someone so badly that I could do anything to get her back. But I already did everything I could, and I guess the answer is time, and maybe after a year i'll get a chance to see her.

I've settled, I've understood; however the flower has blossomed, but I still long for the fruitless flower. Although the words were not wrong, sometimes people like to suffer or be tortured; too conscious, it is pitiful but doesn't help. If one can act so reasonable, that relationship may be fake. Perhaps there is a price for happiness. She understand my attitude the best, lovelorn is a setback which will help people mature. I'm felt sorry that I wasn't careful with my words and feelings as I haven't had a girlfriend for half a decade. She was very special to me, and I will always carry her heart, in my heart. Because of her, she has given me strength, given me unlimited luck.

I was very persuasive and trying to put things to sense, I had explained every detail with logic to make her understand. But it was too late and she just wanted to be single. She was sick and tired of love and relationships. I know she has been hurt badly in the past and she just needed her space. And it took me a while to realized that we shouldn't be together. But in the end, we will see each other with someone else. There will be a day we will find the only one, and I am not her only one. We will smile as we congratulate one another. Love will make people suffer, this is why we chose this path. To be each others friends instead of lovers.

Nobody can be friends forever and nobody can be enemies a lifetime. I hope she accepts my apology, and I will still take her as a friend in the near future. I hope she understand the reason of me blocking her off my facebook and I have deleted all her contacts. It is not because of hatred. I just felt it is much reasonable for me not to recall her so soon. I will try my best to forget about the past and move on. What we did in the past was very memorable to me.

So I guess time will tell. I hope I will get my passion back as soon as possible, and meet someone new this coming semester.

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It has been ages since I last visited this website. Been socializing these few months and have no time for my own uni assignments and interest. But now I have to put everything back in to place. Will be uploading more works that I never showed to anyone. Although I don't really like DeviantART system, but this is still my home. The place where I grew up since long time ago.

:)

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Hey guys, I hope you read this....

I am not very active here. This does not mean i'm leaving deviantART. I just felt I had enough of this community. I'm moving on to Flickr now, where you can find my latest work and so on. I felt that Flickr is a better website, not in browsing, but displaying my work as it is well known as the international facebook. You must be asking me right now, why not get a website? Well, I loved one so badly, but couldn't afford one that I like and I do not have time to build one.

So please watch and comment on my Flickr. Heres the link.

flickr.com/couleurflickr

This does not mean that I wont be posting my works here. I will, because this is where I built myself and I wouldnt like to ditch of 120,000 genuine views. So dont worry.

You guys must be thinking where and what I am doing now.

Well, i'm back in my home country now, Malaysia. Had been here for about a month to catch up with some good old friends. I also went down to Singapore to shoot a couple of Ferrari's, but the trip was pretty disappointing, oh, and I met Andy Wee there. Couldnt have gotten more cars here too, but I guess the time didnt work quite well, I am very upset though. But i'm more then happy to get the Ferrari's, and I love Singapore for so many reasons.

I'm going back to Melbourne this week. Semester is commencing tomorrow and i'll have to skip a few classes... hehe. Dont feel like going back so soon. I miss my Australian friends and my beloved bicycle.

I live two lives now.

Regards

Maurice.

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